A long time away is an understatement really? It has been a very long time since I last wrote and published a blog post on here. Yet here I am, once again trying to revive this blog of mine. I guess I should fill in a few gaps of where I’ve been?
Something I want to mention at the start of this post is something that is going on in the world now in the shape of coronavirus/Covid-19. I do not want to make this post all about me as we are at a time where everyone is equally important and we all matter. I understand how scary and anxiety inducing this virus is, especially as it feels like we are day’s away in the UK from a lockdown of sorts. Supermarkets are empty of basic necessities due to fear, and hospitals are pushed to their limits. Nevertheless, I want to highlight my blog as a safe space to take a break from how scary life is at the moment, and be able to have a moment of thought that is fun and light-hearted. I am a nurse and I want to reiterate how important it is to try and take the information you see on social media with a pinch of salt. By all means follow the advice of WHO and the government as these will have the most unskewed, factual information. The world is a scary place right now, and I hope that everyone is as safe as they can be. Here is today’s blog post…
I’m not sure if you remember me harping on about that nursing degree course I was enrolled on? Well I only went and got a first class degree! In all seriousness though, it was both physically and mentally demanding. The Nursing and Midwifery council require 2300 hours of both practice and theory in order to be able to qualify, which translates to a lot of hard work. 4600 hours of hard work. I really had zero energy to give my blog because a nursing degree is like working full time whilst doing a number of assignments. Then I decided it would be a grand idea to throw myself into the deep end of nursing. I managed to get a job on critical care as a newly qualified nurse. To say I don’t like doing things by halves would be an understatement. I really struggled. I ended up with severe anxiety and I was not thriving. I was also in an on again off again relationship. Another area of my life I wasn’t thriving in. I was stagnating in all sense of the word. For my own wellbeing, I decided to leave behind all the toxic relationships in my life I was harbouring. I left my relationship and I left my job on critical care. I was petrified of not being good enough and not following the plan I had set myself. Change is incredibly scary, and when it’s self inflicted and all at once, it’s a little bit harder to navigate. The phrase ‘if you fail to plan, you plan to fail’ (thanks to all my high school teachers for that one) made me feel like the biggest failure ever. I’d planned and yet it still felt like I had failed.
However, I’m now a year qualified, with a job I love and I finally have energy and motivation to throw myself back into my blog. I have the most supportive, healthy relationship too. The time seems right to resurrect my blog. I could sit here and make excuses for why I didn’t blog, but none of that really matters. What matters is that I’m putting energy into this blog again. I’m giving myself the opportunity to be vulnerable again when it comes to sharing parts of myself with the internet. I’m allowing myself time and space to learn what makes me and my blog tick.
I’m not sure exactly what my plan is when it comes to this blog. There will be no promises this time around. I’m not putting any pressure on myself to upload a post x amount of times within a week. I’m just allowing myself to get excited with my return again. For the meantime, please excuse the fact that my photography skills and editing skills may not be up to par with everyone else. I will learn and improve. Whilst we’re on the topic of excusing things, this theme is temporary to see if I actually can commit to my blog again. I do not see the point in parting with my hard earned pennies for the fanciest theme, if I do nothing with it. I have no clue what SEO is, and I am not up to speed with all the blogging jargon nowadays. However, I do hope you will stick around and join me on the journey to figure out who I am and what my blog is.
Have you returned to blogging recently? How did you find it?